Trusting in You

Lord, everybody around me says I should trust in You,

And I know that I should,

Regardless of what I’m going through.

But trusting in You is easier said than done.

 

Sometimes I go to You in prayer,

Trusting that You will answer me quickly,

Or send help from heaven, as people say.

But there is silence.

Total silence.

My heart sinks as I think about what Your silence could mean,

Is it a sign that You don’t care?

That my cries don’t touch Your heart?

Trusting in You is easier said than done!

 

It hurts, Lord, it hurts!

My body is in so much pain,

As I desperately cry out to You for help.

And yet, You are silent.

Why aren’t You saying anything?

Or doing anything?

Why aren’t You sending me Your healing?

Why aren’t You listening to me?

Honestly, Lord,

Trusting in You is easier said than done!

 

My wallet is empty, my bank account dry,

And people are knocking on my door,

Demanding that their dues be paid.

I hide behind the closed door,

Praying that You will miraculously provide.

But, just like before,

There is silence.

Don’t You care, Lord?

Can’t You see how much I am suffering?

You know what, Lord?

Trusting in You is easier said than done!

 

I am done, Lord.

I am done trusting in You.

You never answer my prayers on time.

You make me go through pain,

That You can take it away in an instant.

You let me go through so much,

Yet You have the power to take it all away!

Why, Lord, why,

Do You make it so hard for me to trust in You?

Trusting in You is truly easier said than done!

 

Hold on, Lord.

What did You just say to me?

Did You just say You love me?

That I am precious in Your sight?

Did I just hear Your voice?

Ever so softly?

Why did You take so long?

Why did You wait until I had given up on You?

Is this how it works?

I fall down and You pick me up?

I give up and then You show up?

Trusting in You is easier said than done!

 

Ok, Lord. I get it now.

You are in control.

You are in charge of my life.

I can’t dictate to You,

What I want You to do for me.

I can only ask,

And wait for the answer.

It may come immediately,

After a few days,

Or never.

But it’s still hard!

Trusting in You is easier said than done!

 

I have learnt a hard lesson today, Lord.

I now know that I must trust in You,

All the time.

When it’s inconvenient.

When it’s painful.

When it doesn’t make sense.

When nothing is working out.

I must trust in You,

Because I belong to You,

And nothing I do will work out without You.

Trusting in You is easier said than done,

But I am ready to try again and again,

Until I am ready to meet You.

 

 

Lord, trusting in You is not easy for me. I often doubt what You are doing in my life, and I am not patient enough to wait for Your perfect time. Help me to wait patiently as I trust in You. Help me to learn to leave everything that I cannot control in Your hands. Help me to remember that You love me and that You want the very best for me. Lord, help me not to give up on You especially when You take what seems like ages to answer me. Help me to trust in You, Lord. Amen.